I don't believe in therapy, even though I want to
I have this problem that always circulates through my mind.
In the past, when I would have a personal issue or crisis, I wanted therapy. What stopped me was one thing.
I just didn't believe in therapy. The practice seemed artificial, like another conflict of interest that we were being sold as the holy grail to our mental health issues.
I never saw one person that went to a therapist as ever getting better. I only saw people worsening, and I only ever heard of the bad stories. The bad side of therapy.
I have so much innate distrust in others, and I actually feel that nobody will want to hear what I have to say anyway. I immediately regret talking if I do say something too personal to anyone.
Why? What's wrong with me?